When the pain comes, go through it, don’t avoid it. We are women, we bend we don’t break. What you are feeling is a reflection also of the female change taking place right now - we are shifting from a dysfunctional rooting into a conditioned male energy, to being anchored in a female energy. Many many women I council when I meet are going through deep pain right now - as if their world is falling apart. Hang in there- the world needs women as you as role models. Most important is to be authentic - your pain is authentic, your tears are too. Only a heart broken open can have true compassion… have compassion on your self, and all the pain you have gone through or even stuffed away. Feel it until it is done.